Assalamualaikum, Bismillah.

well, yeah another tiring day for me. i didnt go to sch in the morning after waking up to see the rain pouring cats and dogs. i hate when this happens. so decided not to go to sch only til 11am then i got onto my bike and went to sch for my remaining lessons. for sure next week ill be getting my 1st ever warning letter for missin the morning lesson which is EWEBAPP. trust me, u won wana get into that module but its a must for me so be it..id rather do it get it done over wif.

k wer do i start? k, i went for apel 2..and ive learnt in that lesson that in a relationship..there has to be a character..and also communication. wifout these 2, there will be a breakdown...and thats for sure. cause a character is the one dat bonds both parties. it doesnt matter whether its relationship in business or studies..or even personal relationships. these principals really matters.

after that, i went for lunch together wif ritz, sharen, chen er and wee wee. ate a hardrock mutton mix wif some tauhu and white rice. ate the remainings in rits meal as always..labelled the "rubbish bin" aka "tong sampah" where meals won come to waste when im ard. after which, it was already 150pm and off i went for my u-theater class. have to act out some funeral man scene and my group...or can i say groups of pairs. me and this guy named fairuz if im not wrong. he has some backgrounds in actin so he helped me alot in that acting scene. did a great job considering we are the 1st group to act it out. all went well and i feel great about that. had to do the log book of course.

after that class, i went straight to the hospital to visit my mum...and what a day it was...went for dinner wif mama rock (bik zana) and uncle kamal..together wif my sis we went to united square to find some kuehs for my mum...had to walk across the road twice..til mama rock has to exchange slippers wif my sis as she had blisters wif those slippers of hers. keke. imagine...a size 6 wearing a size 9..keke...giant slippers on a tiny foot.keke. and she looks like a kampong girl wif her tudung..keke. i had some extra dinner there wif 4 half boiled eggs at yaka watever the name is toast somethin2...after that we went back to the hospital and had some kuacis as always..maybe tomorrow mama rock might wana bring her portable dvd player as ive lent her the hikmah 2 cd...so gona have somethin to do while in the hospital other than eating kuacis every single day together wif my another uncle and aunt..

so yah...930pm sharp we went home after kissin my mum's forehead who is still in the ICU...tomorrow the doctors will be meeting my elder sis n mama rock regarding my mum's situation. by then they will call me when im in sch.

just wana say...yah maybe its true my enthusiasm for sch is fading but i won ever gona let that drag me down...i will still study hard like ive always did..im still the hafidz who never gives up to gettin wat i wanted...n wat i wan to see in future of my loved ones..once ive said i will be there..i will be there insya Allah..till then..

failing m5, mum warded in ICU, mum's repeated operations, passed m5 on 2nd attempt, fabulous speech in seminar, stupid and unthoughtful course manager, a soccer match wif hady mirza's team and the list goes on...

yes...these are all that ive went through for these few days or can i say few weeks...just bear in mind this post will be quite a long one n hope its not givin u the feeling of goin to sleep in front of the pc.

M5 EXAM
lets start with the m5 exam which i took. for ur info, this exam is the last one for me to pass in order to have a contract wif manulife financial. i failed the 1st attempt which i took on the 18th of april. i was so depressed that day but from what ive learnt, " failure doesnt mean its the end, its a start of a road to success" or like what my manager told me "good things doesnt come easily" yeah its true...its really true.

29th april i retake the paper and this time, i passed. Everythin was on top of the world for me. my plans of becoming a financial planner is in the grips of my hands now. Only time will tell when.

MUM'S CONDITION
up till now, my mum is still in the ICU. it all started on the 2oth of april. She was warded and wat a way for her to be warded. :( i felt sooooo saddened upon hearin that my mum actually went to the hosp to be warded BY HERSELF!! what the fish...where's her son and daughters? if ive known she's goin alone, i would have followed her but the thing is that we already had an agreement with the other family members. me myself n my younger sis couldnt make it as we have other commitments except for my elder sis..but im really disappointed wif her. She felt that her sleep is even more important than her mum. :S nvm about that as its already passed.

k here's another thing im really fuming about. in the agreement stated, my mum was supposed to be operated only once. and dats it. she'll be discharged a week after. but that wasnt the way. in fact, my mum had to go through 4 diff operations and that really sunk my heart down the floor looking at what she has to go through. poor mum :( why must she be the one goin through this?? why mustnt it be me?? id rather see myself in that bed rather than my mum. till now im still looking forward to seeing her out from the hospital. till then, ill keep visiting her everyday and waitin for her to be transfered out to the normal ward from the ICU. Pray for us....

on top of everythin ive said, theres this course manager of mine. had an argument with him on the 30th april cause i took too many of leaves.. heloooooo, its just 3 times in my entire poly live. and ive never taken any leaves during my 1 year of poly days as i don favour takin MCs or leaves unless im really2 sick or its god damn important. and hell yes my mum in the hospital is my top priority. say whatever studies comes 1st or what the hell...for me, my mum comes 1st. "hafidz, uve been takin too many leaves, 3 leave forms in 1 week." so?? yah thats what Sir Barnabas told me...extend my leave if its urgent...n yes its urgent..if not, for freaking fish do i take leave for? told ya i take leaves when its really2 urgent. course manager he is..but the understanding between himself and his students just wasnt there. no motivation given for the students. harsh words was what he offered. yes he did approved all me leaves...but it came wif a price...heartache. thanks.

thinking of the bright side, sometimes, whatever happened doesnt mean the bad gets worst..